Chandreyee Johnson: Intro to Statistics

Personal note: 
This is the last e-portfolio assignment that I will submit to this page that relates to Salt Lake Community College. In reflecting back, there are so, so many things I have to say right now. I doubt I will get them all out, but I might as well try. They are in no chronological (or logical for that matter), order so if you want a random read, continue on.

First and foremost, the song. "I hope you dance." This last April was the most devastating month I have ever experienced. I lost my dad on the 10th and it was unexpected to the entire Cook clan. There were so many things that happened right before he left us that just left us in anger and upon actually losing him, we all metaphorically stood there with our hands open and arms out to the side baffled, shocked, and hurt. My dad was the BIGGEST influence on my life. Someone (I believe it was Brent Wamsley) said at his funeral that he never once heard "Ed" complain. I reflected on that in the funeral service and still to this day and I have to commend him on that statement: I certainly can't remember a single instance where my dad complained. He always had something positive and uplifting to say, even if it might have been in a religious nature. He was truly an amazing dad, husband, and friend. This song is my memory of him. 

Delving into the educational portion slightly, starting this semester, I was so bitter. Full of spite, anger, and resentment towards any other person out there that even breathed funny, I definitely didn't start it out on the right foot. Most people know to be very courteous and less matter of fact and brunt. Well, that was certainly not me at first. I was still very angry over everything that had gone on. Somewhere along the way, the anger started to fade a bit and I started being able to get more focused on what I was doing. With that, I lead into this final e-portfolio from Salt Lake Community College.

When I was first 'forced' into doing the e-portfolio some fair amount of semesters past, I was angered. I was annoyed at how inconvenient it would be and felt even more bothered because I sat there thinking, "SLCC wants us to do E-portfolios so that they have something to brag about and are still having some reference back to them." That thought was what really bothered. In hind sight, that was definitely a thinking error. While it may hold some validity that they would want to have references in a student's upcoming professional career, I think that was still the wrong way of viewing it. 

As I finished uploading this assignment, it all hit me at once. "This is it." I felt an instant rush of emotions (which isn't too uncommon for me lately as I move through the emotional turmoil that this year threw at me/us). Happiness, eagerness, excitement, sadness, fear, anxiety, and finally curiosity. I have no idea what's in store for me as I head to my next college for my Bachelor's. I'm excited that I am FINALLY there. I'm also a bit remorseful because in my entire lengthy education with Salt Lake Community College, I made one friend that I talk to occasionally. I didn't even keep in touch with teachers that impacted me because I had NO idea if it was okay, appropriate, or if they would think I was some nut job. I guess then, this next go around with my Bachelor's, I'm going to make a small commitment here to make an effort to try to connect with other students so I don't feel as alone in my educational goals as I did through my pursuance of my Associates. Secondly, I'm going to keep a more positive outlook on assignments given because for one, I don't want to go back and read my pessimism and I'm sure other's don't either, but more importantly, it's a reflection of myself and I don't want to be that cranky old lady with 50 cats and alone. Just saying!! (haha).  I'm excited to finally be moving forward, but, boy, I think I'm actually going to miss SLCC.

8/6/2014